4/23/01 - 5:21 P.M.
Where oh where has my linnkitty gone... where oh where can she be...
Sorry I've been so absent lately. Just got distracted with other things, I guess... not to mention haven't been able to think of many things to write. So much for my almost-two-month string of writing an entry every day.
I guess the main reason I'm online right now and typing is because we had our first thunderstorm of the spring/summer today. I got up for my 8 AM Stagecraft exam and dodged soggy worms all the way to the theatre building. In the two hours set aside for this exam, I was done in half an hour and munching doughtnut holes (timbits?) all the way back to my dorm, dodging soggy worms again. It was surprisingly warm and humid, almost stilflingly so as I walked and all I could think about at that moment was getting back to my room and going back to bed. Which I did.
I slept until about 1, then rolled around for a while, just enjoying my sheets. So I'm a sucker for just rolling around. Shoot me. I did a little mental story for about an hour, one of the kind that I do before going to sleep or when I don't feel like living in the real world for a while. Kat and Cara should be interested to know that it was in Athens, involving various anthro'ed couples... and don't ask me why, but I dabbled in what I think Bertis Downs might be like as a cute-terrier mutt.
Around 3 or 4, I could hear thunder in the distance and it wasn't long before the rain started coming down in sheets, so much that I had to close my window against being soaked. It thundered and lightening'ed for about half an hour, then quieted down into what it's been doing most of the day, which is just a steady, chilly rain. Ooo!!! I hear more thunder!! The rain is picking up again as I type this.
I'm still not sure why I seem to have such a fascination with rain. Thunderstorms used to scare the shit out of me but now I love them. I love walking in the rain and getting completely soaked (only its a little too cold to walk out dressed as I currently am in t-shirt and jean shorts...wishful thinking, Linn). I wrote an entry in Snapshit about walking in the rain and how much I enjoy it. I've noticed lately that I'm starting to think more about elemental magic and the idea that certain magic-wielders tap into certain elements more easily than others. I used to think that if that applied to me, my element would be fire. Now, I'm not so sure. I wouldn't call myself a water-elemental either, exactly. I love rain but I'm not all that fond of bodies of water. I swim more like an otter than a human, though. It's just easier for me that way.
I almost wonder if I'm just being more in contact with nature as a force recently. The rain thing is part of it and I've been more sensitive to scents and moods, too. I've caught myself identifying scents as familiar without knowing exactly what they are and they reference to certain periods of my life or people I know. I used to have to be right ontop of something before I could smell it but I'm more likely to raise my nose into the air, sniff lightly and know that there's something in the air.
Like rain. I smell rain coming. I think I always have and it's a smell I welcome, even when I was afraid of thunderstorms. Since high school, I've been fond of the sound of rain on the roof...maybe even before then. I seem to remember sleeping upstairs at my dad's house (in spite of my terror of the attic) during rain storms just so I could hear the rain on the roof. I don't know why I have such a fascination with rain. It's just there.
I felt an odd sensation of guilt walking to my final today. As I was stepping around all those drowning worms, I almost felt like it was my fault they were drowning. Because I love the rain and keep hoping it'll rain more.
That could just be my habit towards blaming myself for everything, too. Oh, well.
